I love you but, I don't feel like telling you anything anymore.
I guess you've found someone else.
I'll click you when I have feelings to share.
Please dont think negative,
I love you okay? I still do.
I really hope that you'll forgive me.
Goodbye, I love you, forever and always.
ALAAI!
23:29 - Thursday, 15 October 2009
this video is dedicated to everyone I know especially to my lost long friends :') and to the grrfriends. I miss you guys alot. we really need to talk! you know who you are.
xx
21:55 -
I wish I can just disappear ..
I'm still alive. I'm still breathing. I can still talk and walk, read and laugh, eat and drink and blah and blah. I've been very busy lately. yes, busy dating with books! torture much. so um, I studied IRK last night, never expect it to be so hard. its 2 times harder than chinese, for me. but yeah, I'm gonna go for Commerce instead. :S
oh God, tell me ..
um, lets talk about school. school is school. suckish much especially when I get annoyed and creeped out by some people. heheh. I got bombed by teacher on Monday morning for coming late to school and by cikgu for not finishing my homework, and for eating lollipop in class -.-" school sucks without .. you people.
you! I still can't believe what she told me. I read your blog .. I dont feel anything. I know you very well, I know your type. I understand you and I know when you'll make your next move. you said everything will be perfect and it turned out to be the opposite of perfect. I thought thats "the one" you're looking for, cos it seems like she got what you have. but she's not. so I guess thats a new beginning. and I really hope that it wont fade away.
Aikawa faint! HAHAHA! I really bursted into tears the other day. he did not faint. he's just tired, cos he carries a lot of stuff with him. he did the same thing two years ago. he's so dramatic. on the same day, he called his "brothers" to beat up A just because A asked B why did B did that when B's running. pft, sekadar.
oh, that was wednesday! after music, we had Civic, after Civic we had Chinese, so the ones who's taking basic chinese were asked to go to the library. Muna is very obnoxious. ha ha ha. seriously. she calls people gila for calling her name -.- in the library, we ran and chased Muna for hitting people for no reason. and theres CCTV in the library, because of that, we got bombed by the librarians, and we blamed Muna!
Vanessa: eh Viel, you know theres CCTV here?
Viel: yeah, I know.
me: know what?
Vanessa: CCTV inside the library.
me: oh where?
*points left and right*
me: ha! cos lots of people make out in the library wah, thats why. but it doesnt look like its connected.
Viel: yeah, i know right.
me: theres only two. people can still make out.
Vanessa: theres more inside there. but I forgot where.
I should be studying by now. torture torture! SPE's on the 19th, which is on Monday, two days after Adam's birthday :O 3 days of study leave after SPE, then back to school's torture again. final exam on the 4th till 12th of November.
I think I'm going solo. I hope I am. I hope I cant come. but I really want to come ..
"everything is just a bullshit" i lol-ed on SinYi's "duh" and "no offence". HAHAHA. and I wanna thank Calvin, SinYi, Pey Wen and Viel for helping. I really appreciate it. now everything's over, I wonder what will happen next.
I do miss you but I can't miss you too much.
xx!
21:08 - Tuesday, 22 September 2009
just a quick post.
H I A T U S
I'll be on hiatus starting from now, due to SPE.
Happy Eid Mubarak to everyone,
forgive all my sins that I've done and for not realising it.
love.
I wont be on Facebook anymore. follow me on Twitter
xx!
23:08 - Friday, 18 September 2009
I had so much fun last night. haha, best night ever, seriously. I wanna share it with you people, but I don't feel like it. I'm keeping it to myself. "can I log in your Facebook?" haha. lovvvvvvyah :D
hah, anyways. I was listening to the radio nights ago, and the listeners was told to check what poklen is on Wikipedia. and this is what I get ..
'Poklen' ,(sometimes referred to as Poklein,Puklen or Pokland) is a pejorative term commonly used by Bruneians to describe a group of young stereotypical teenagers in Brunei. They are characterized by their peculiar taste in fashion, and the tendency to speak and write in a way out of the norm. "Poklens" are often seen as poseurs because they tend to try and act 'cool' or independent, and may try to imitate others and other sub-cultures.These imitated traits are predominantly Western, such as speaking in a faux English accent or being unusually partial to hiphop music. Poklen in itself is not a classification that stands on its own, such that it is not on the level of Emos and Punks, but a term that is used by Bruneians to classify all these other groups.
"Poklens", whose ages range from early to late adolescence, are usually centralised in the Gadong area, although they originate mainly from along the town area (Bandar Seri Begawan). They usually loiter around central business areas and shopping centres (i.e The Mall, Yayasan Complex and so on). This, however, is purely hypothetical as no extensive research has been done on the social stature of 'Poklens', and they do exist in other districts in Brunei as well. The thought of 'Poklens' originating from these places stated is just a result of generalisation as it is perceived by the public that a large number of 'Poklens' are in these areas, and this is probably due to the Brunei-Muara district being the most populated from the other districts, and hence the larger number of 'Poklens'. It is therefore a misunderstanding in the community of Brunei that Poklens come from the mentioned areas.
Melbourne Shufflers in Brunei are often labeled as 'Poklens'. Most shufflers intends to show-off their shuffling skills in public, which resulted into a contradicting issue, thus having them being labeled as 'Poklens'. A number of Shufflers, if not all, deny the association of Poklens and Shufflers, but such claim will remain a debate as there is currently no research being done on both groups to come to a professional conclusion.
'Poklens' have been perceived to establish their own way of writing, especially in text messages. Random capitalisation and the suffix of 'X' or 'Z' at the end on words, the usage of 'ahax!' (the equvalent of 'l.o.l'), replacing 'K' as 'Q', and replacing 'B' with 'V' i.e 'vyex' (the equivalent of 'bye') ,are characteristic of the 'Poklen' way of writing.
The term Poklen was derived from a name of a town in the United Kingdom ,Portland in the early days. Portland was known to have a bad football team,and the people in Brunei instead supported Manchester United or Liverpool.They referred Portland as being the worst team and people often insult and argued through this matter. The term consequently evolved to define the teenagers who are loitering around town areas of the districts in Brunei and who wears inappropriate and mismatched clothes.
some of them are true. and gila eh, you guys are like memalukan Negara Brunei Darussalam. heheh. w h a t e v e r.
xx!
22:31 -
finally! pictures from school. :D
enjoy!
took this on chinese period.
before!
after! nyah, bad bad husband! HAHA playing with clays during english.
Fong and his shit.
GARRY! Sin Yi made this for you :P *as if he's gonna read this*
and this. I made that dude. -_-
this cat is for .. ZANNA! haha. :P on my way back to school from gerai.
A.
litmus paper.
another 'A'
again .. 'A'
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English orals.
HAHAHA! vuala! who asked you to be so careless? hint hint. Calvin Jong Ming Yii!
"My name is Elvis!"
haha. Ong's; left his wallet on the table.
took it and show it to Haqimie, then Fong busybody blahblah.
-___-"
xx!
15:11 - Thursday, 17 September 2009
just a quick post. this is err, 6.12? haha. I woke up at 5.30, on the laptop, signed in my msn and baaaaam! I recieved lots of offline messages. eh wait, remove the "lots of". heheh.
someone just made my day. after reading his message, I started to type alot of things saying ... and etc. I REALLY WANT TO DISSAPPEAR! :O seriously.
*updated*
theres a reason why I want to dissappear. a reason, and that reason is .. I dont know :p haha, apakan? this is lame.
I am bored. sigh. what the hell is wrong with Facebook? everybody's complaining. uhh. ignore.
xx.
18:52 - Wednesday, 16 September 2009
today was quiet. I just remembered I have three English holiday homeworks; 2 composition, and 5 pictures D: I am so tired. sigh. mom woke me up and she told me to go to the salon later. eeeeh, I don't want. hours sitting there, or maybe not. wait, I hope not.
moving on.
I miss the ugama peeps too; Abang, Akmal, Khairul, Irina, Amni, Shar, Ziqah, Nisah, Liyana, Hafiz, Sheikh, Amal, Khalisha, Neeys, Amir, Aiman, some weirdos and more .. I can't remember some of them. cos I'm only close with some of them. now I know I have friends in ugama, but I forgot their names. gaah. its not like they're gonna read my blog. heheh.
I fell asleep while messaging with "This Heart Attack" last night. haha. then I woke up at 3, replied his message and went back to sleep. and then I received his message again, and I ignore, for good. :)
this is the time when I need people.
"still got 10 more day baru can c dao u leh.. miss u so much weh.." HAHA. Ahax Ahax's personal message. :p
eh, you cant actually avoid me. I have a very big satellite. I have lots of friends who can actually help me. I'm not that stupid, I know where to get informations. so, dont make me reveal everything. even if I dont really know much about "everything"
whatever.
xx.
23:01 - Tuesday, 15 September 2009
okay. that was "whatthefuck" -_- uh, baie. I was looking through someone's blog, then blaaah! I was like eee, why cant you just say it out? you dont have to write it there. eugh! even your friends said you're eee .. I don't feel like saying. as long as everyone knows what I'm thinking, then good.
sigh. this is a really good thing.
I finally chatted with Muizzah. it felt like years. hah, but at least today was fun. I finished listening to the song. and now listening to it, again. over and over again. heheh.
I want to live with you and love with you,
Oh yes I do; I know I do.
Just hold me now, and we can make it though.
We'll make it through, oh,
You know it's true.
I know some of you people cant wait for Raya. how lame. ho well, few more days to go till Ramadhan's over. happy fasting!
I think Fong has a girl. o.o his personal message, "if I love you, I'll go and look for you(*?). i'll miss you too my girl <3>
I am .. craving for .. F .. uhh .. fuh-un .. d-d-do-nuts. I am craving for Fun Donuts! and I also miss Zimah. I didnt see her online, and in school. sigh, I wonder where people go these days.
xx!
21:38 -
SPE is two weeks after the holidays! thanks to Syafiq Maarof for correcting me :) haha. did you guys read his status just now? "setan mana lagi merasuk kau ani?" - Anizz :p
heheh, whatever that means.
moving on.
haha, is that what you mean by "Kanye West talur"?
LOL
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EEEEE! I cant get rid of the picture. the picture on the *points* eee! I just cant. Gaaah, whatever. I haven't start revising yet. and I need to start it now. :S
broken broken broken. I hope you get what I mean.
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not broken heart lah you, dumbo! my heart is not even broken yet. its fully fixed. after the kiss you gave the other day :p HAHA.
lai, stop lai.
okaaaaay, I miss school already, alot.
I hate holidays, cause SPE is 1 week after the holidays.
pressure pressure!
18:50 - Monday, 14 September 2009
I feel like privating my blog, again. until I changed into a new skin. yes? uh, maybe no. I got annoyed by the "Potatoes Rules" wah. I can't change it, cause I can't find it. pfft, I'll do it some other time. so um, about the pictures. I hope you can wait.
Anyhoos, today is Zanna's beloved sexy awesome SMSS boyfriend's birthday! HAHA. just want to make it long. whatever I just said. blaaaaah! jibber jabber wibber wabber.
ookay? someone started to talk about love again ______ ohmyGod. but at least she's not as annoying as the previous one. to be honest though. _she told me a secret! wuw! she told me not tell anyone about this__ gaah, the secret. its not like what I expected. eeee! I was expecting it to be smokin' hot. with flames on top. but this secret sounds lame. *zips mouth*
and I'm starting to like that girl. she kind of like made me smile. which is a really nice thing. okay, moving on.
I really need to study History! and have you changed your target? :O hah, whateh-ver. Raya is coming. I hate Raya. I love seeking for people's forgiveness but I hate people seeking for my forgiveness. I ain't gonna forgive you after all the shits you've done! I'll only forgive um .. my bestfriends, *theres a list of em, I dont feel like saying it out* etc etc.
okay, I'm not liking that girl. -_____-"
eugh, poklens. I've been reading "the book" for three days, just to entertain me when I'm bored. comments; its a very poklen book of love and lust. yuck? yes. yuck!
xx! update later.
I wanna know what love is,
I want you to show me.
I wanna feel what love is,
I know you can show me.
(L)(L) I love love love that song. err, I .. dedicated that song to thomeone. NOT yet :D
hours waiting, I spent my time with Zaimah, and Amal gossiping; Bazlee, chit-chatting. Joel, Julia Leong :p and I forgot who else. but yeah, I had fun with Zaimah and Amal. haha, what you guys said was true though. we'll wait for next time. ^^
heheh. wanna know what our evil plan is? __ not telling ya!
God, I can't find my brother. I need his phone to upload the pictures. or else, you'll have to wait.
Julia Leong Julia Leong Julia Leong Julia LeongJulia Leong Julia Leong Julia Leong Julia Leong.
Joel OngJoel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong Joel Ong.
Tommy Fong Tommy Fong Tommy Fong Tommy Fong Tommy Fong Tommy Fong.
I miss Zanna, Hui Tien, Sin Yi, Muiz, Adam, Bryan, Syafiq, Edward, Calvin, Tommy, Fong, Xin Lu, Lynne, Eric, Aniz, Nadzuen, Neeys, Nisah, Effie, Amal, Nadiatul, Nina, Pey Wen, Lala, Yi Qin, Chin Chin, Vinly and the others. I somehow miss teacher Gladys and teacher Merline + teacher Priya, teacher Edith and the rest.
teacher: eh, I tell you one secret. but dont tell anyone, okay? everyone: oh, okay. what secret? teacher: dont tell anyone oh, promise? today is google launching monopoly game *everyone laugh*
*started to make noise*
*talks*
*explains*
teacher: dont sign up before I sign up okay. Let me sign up first.
and that is teacher you-know-who! ha! I missed him to and those revisions he used to torture us, joke!
xx! im off. hope you liked the new skin!
18:51 - Sunday, 13 September 2009
I have questions to ask you. but I'm just scared. hmm. I just don't like disturbing or ruining someone's moment. its wrong, like really wrong. I dont want to be in the centre of attention. ho well, I'm not gonna say anything. I'll just watch and see and keep my mouth shut.
wuw. what the hell was that. heheh. palui. alright, ignore.
didnt went to the reunion yesterday. mum and the others went to the cemetry for some cleaning. its a must to do that before Raya. then I was at home babysitting my sister. NOT. she went to the cemetry -.-" while me and my dad stayed at home re-decorating the living room -__-" pee em es D: twice. how great.
holidays just started. second day, so far so not good. been suffering already. gonna get my heads to the books later. I'll be studying History! nyeh, dont wanna let teacher Alwin down, again. haha. he was dissapointed on my marks for History. I failed. but yeah, whatever. gonna try harder for SPE.
I guess I'll be posting up pictures from Brendan's birthday which was two weeks ago on the next post. this blog sucks, feel like stop blogging.
i hope i can share everything but im just plain lazy. sigh. so um, went sungkai at Saffron with NBT. then searching for hamper and blah. then went home and sleep at 9. and then im deadly awake. cos i cant sleep well. :( pfft~
i dont want to get fooled again, by the same person. i dont. i d-o-n-t dont! ah, whatever. you can do it to every girl if you want :)
gaaaaah! i dont know what to say. but bleh, i dont care. you happy, i happy. you sad, me more happy. you sad sad, me lagi happy.
ew. she's talking about love with me. bleaaaaagh. i wanna study first, pass my SPE.
hahahuhuhehehoho
i'm supposed to give away my first today. but i cant make it, i know mom will just say no and she said she's going to buy paint and stuffs for the house. plus, i wanna go to the doctor. and im not fasting. cos, im still sick D: i hope you know what i mean by what i just said earlier.
oh oh, i wore tudung two nights ago. -_-" had sungkai at my aunt's. then mum wanted to buy fax papers. so went to First Emporium. then i saw Derby and her family. and Damcoel. i was avoiding. i dont want them to see me in tudung. its ugly. yes, ugly.
haiyoo, stop talking about love lah, woman.
i was checking through people's picture on Facebook, and i clicked on it and saw this girl wearing skinnies, and i saw her fats. which is benar benar disgusting. Calvin once asked me why malays loved wearing skinnies, and show off their boxers, and use eyeliners to look emo. haha, i found people like that are kind of disgusting. only the part they showoff their boxers and use eyeliners to make 'em look emo. agree? no offence, but seriously. it is.
finally .. silence.
my eyes are still widely open. imma try going back to sleep. and im going change my blog skin etc. i'll end this here, and start a new one. bye bitches from bitcherwitcherwicker world.
xx!
00:25 - Friday, 4 September 2009
the picture says it all :D
SPE's one month away. eyes on the book.
good luck people.
xx!
00:19 - Monday, 24 August 2009
sorry for the lack of updates! same reason. :D
got loads to talk about, but 'same reason'. haha. anyways, just got back from ugama. had test 2, easy peasy. i think? mm. and umm .. err .. fasting, i hope i can fast fer the whole month. :D Amin. and ghost festival was last week, on saturday. and then .. idk what to blog about.
oh yeah, err ... i met Amirin's parents on saturday at the stadium buying food to break the fast. i was so happy that Amirin's mom recognized me, i dont know how but yeah. too bad Amirin wasnt there, i only saw his lil brother. gosh, cute banar. *wiggles eyebrow. i am still happy until now. haha, apakan?
okay, this sucks.
I'm grounded. :D (y) ---> (n)
I'm blank, speechless.
oh and, i miss miss camp. ive been chatting with some of the campers, and they kabooom! refresh. haha. apakan?
09:32 - Monday, 17 August 2009
i am feeling quite moody. i dont know why. as you can see, my facebook status are about blah. yeh. Vincent asked me why am i asking weird questions. ==" cos im bored. i think? whatever lah. i'm willing to kill you. if thats what you want then yes, i will. but before that, leave a note and say that you yourself who asked me to kill you. not me. palui!
i think i will be on hiatus.
10:53 - Saturday, 15 August 2009
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09:57 -
VIEEEEEL!
Calvin and Wei Junneh.
Lala doing her bm oral.
Lynne.
Maaarof.
chemicals? not.
Bassir -.-
concentrated solution
fire burning on the table! :O
the thing thats on fire.
i think its gasoline? i think.
call 911!
the first five pictures above are from yesterday's bm oral. got bored and picture picture them. and below are the pictures when we went to the science lab and do corrections. then, weeeee secretly went into the other lab and did that. tuu, bassir. lan si :p HAHA. joke
i kept on receiving miss calls from this particular number since last night. and got annoyed so i decided to message that person and asked who is he/she. and then, i receive the message this morning saying 'tis is teacher priya answer d phone' i was shocked, and i called her back, but no answer. and now, i'm really scared. :S
ohmygod. what should i do?
biar tia eh.
09:11 -
Muzzy Rayhim Saya dari disney , nama saya mickey , tetapi weezy dan alaaister panggil saya muzzy , R.V.Boyz panggil saya playa , sejak it saya jadi kaya , beberapa bulan lagi akan ada hari raya , dan saya juga penyanyi di jalan raya .
Khairul Amirin Mukminin saya pula weezy, saya gelar alaister sebagai alaizy. akan tetapi bunyinya macam lazy. saya akan memberinya nama baru lagi. sekian saja pada kali ini. smoga ku brpluang untuk rapping lagi. selamat tnggal dan jaga diri.
Muzzy Rayhim Selamat tinggal dan jaga diri. Ingat lah awda pada diri sendiri. Weezy dan alaizy baik jadi diri. Saya akan belari lari hingga mati. Awda jagan lupa semasa di jalan raya mesti pakai talipingag keledar.
awesome kan? i know right. all they do is rap. day and night. morning, evening. night, dawn? whatever.
bbq at my house -.-" Uncle Ibrahim's not here! boring eh. x.x and i hate the situation right now. first, that man is here ==" second, the house is really really noisy. third, i dont want that man to be here. evil. but seriously, i really dont like him.
mum just called me, showed me the dude who wanted to teach me photography. was really shocked to know that that man is the dude i've been talking about.
OHMYGOD!
i think the girls are having so much fun. yeah, obviously. i dont have to think, i can just say they are. right?
Bazlee's picture makes me feel better. cos its a dynamic picture. (Y) and Stalker went off! leaving an offline message. sigh. boring.